ok, its been a long and tiring week, thankfully i came back in one piece. yes, and today was the release of a lvls, my gp grade is... still the same.. oh my gosh, i dont know what's wrong with myself, ok, i guess i really have a problem with languages. So, i have problems with languages, math and physics, well then, i wonder if there's something in this world that i can excel in. ok, before you start thinking that im being emotional and have some weird suicidal thoughts, let me assure you im in a very calm state of mind, and i wont do anything foolish. Anyway, this day reminded me of exactly what happened a year ago, that devastating day.. And i thought how a yr has passed and so much in me has changed, i guess im more determined than ever before to prove myself wrong, that the one and only challenge i have.. but right now, i believe i lack a strong sense of direction in my life, i need to find a goal in life, a clear distinct and reachable.. that might motivate me even more. lols.. ok im off to search for my goal in life