I asked myself why, why is it that my most unhappy times were problems arising from church stuff, and at the end of the day, the ones who really could offer me a listening ear were my non-Church friends. It wasnt really advice which i needed, it was a listening ear, and yes, im sad to say, i found it in them. Sometimes i really wondered why God made things this way, that ironically, the place which was suppose to give me hope and courage didnt quite well turn out to be the way i would expect.