Tumultous change of events

A week ago, i rmbed feeling upset over PW results. That day, i swore to myself that im gonna work really hard. But deep down in my heart, i was really depressed. All these while, for all the time ive sacrficed, and this is what i got? Even God didnt seem to be helping me. Alas, i finally understood how ppl whose prayer werent answered would have felt. Yes, i was upset, but somehow i seem to feel that he had his reasons. Then i rmbed tt i have a Pnw session going on next sat (today) and i thot to myself no way i could animate probably with me in this predicament. It would certainly be yet another day i screwed up the whole session.

Fasted on thurs quietly, prayed real hard from wed-fri that the session would work. I seem to realise that praying for your loved ones would be the greatest thing one could ever do for them. That besides the point, all these while ive been wondering y despite my prayer and sacrifices, the Pnw sessions NEVER worked. I couldnt think of any reason. Its not as though i did all for myself, its for greater good, but why? Then came today, i walked into the music studio, feeling afraid tt things might not work out once again. We said our prayers together, and Joy said a special prayer for me. Yeah man, i need this. After the prayer, we practised songs, welcome ppl and did everything as per normal.

But when the worship start after the guest speaker finally arrived, miraculosly, i felt so much ease and relaxed in front of everyone. Its so different from previous sessions. And before i knew it, it was my turn to speak and all i know is that i was opening my mouth none stop, jus speaking speaking and speaking. How did it happen i really dunno. For those who know me, they know i relied alot on my script. But today, i did make much reference to it except check wad iam suppose to say next. I even managed to think of things to say on the spot. Okay maybe its not tt ive thought of it but its nudging statements that randomly cross my mind and stimulated my thots. Good Heavens, this is sth tt ive never imagine i could do. the C grade i got for Pnw, it realli punctured my confidence, hence i was really surprised i could do it.

OH and a miracle happened. Aud said she printed out exactly 15 handouts. However >18 ppl turn out today and amazingly every1 got a copy. Then i suddenly rmbed the homily i heard earlier. Abt the first miracle in Cana where water was turned to wine, and 5 fishes and 2 loaves was enuff to go round for the many hungry ppl as written in the gospel. I guess today, God has given me this confidence that He is always ard us. Though things may not turn out to be expected, God listens and does wonders. Im not trying to convert anyone here but would like to share this pleasant experience i had.