I thought i wouldnt mind, but i guess i did. I didnt like it when others could casually decide to turn up at their whim and fancy when I have to sacrifice my weekends with my family. I didnt like it when I took pains to prepare only to see a pathetic attendance. Is it my fault that I couldnt make it interesting enough so that they'll be eager to come? I'm really tired, and i dont know how much longer i can hold on... I really wish that I'm not fighting a lone battle, that it is just me who wants to make that change while others choose to remain at status quo and taking the backseat.