Alright Joan, enough of those nonsensical thoughts that is trying pollute your mind. Haven't you been proven 101 times how much you meant as a beloved child of God? Have you forgotten that all these trials and tribulations are just purifications and part of a God's amazing plan? Why allow yourself to be blinded by material goodness and distant yourself away from the love of God?

You ought to have faith. Really.

Yours Sincerly,
Joan.